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It’s been quite a while since I’ve posted anything…but my mind has been too active to let all my thoughts just swarm around in the busy beehive called my brain….I call this, “In My Head”….

In this mind of mine, there are too many thoughts,
so much thinking that my mind gets caught.

In this brain of mine, there are too many meanings,
my imagination going crazy and messing with my feelings.

In this head of mine, there’s too much going on,
trying to figure out where I truly belong.

In this mind of mine, I feel like I’m going crazy,
I wish these thoughts of mine would just stop and be lazy.

In this brain of mine, it’s truly a tricky thing to get,
gambling with my heart like it’s one big bet.

In this head of mine, forgetting about the pain is so hard to do,
I constantly remind myself of it and think of it through and through.

In this mind of mine, I feel like I’m gonna always get hurt,
so my jealousy haunts me, even with one little flirt.

In this brain of mine, I feel like everyone’s the same,
one day they’ll end up hurting me and playing me like a game.

In this head of mine, the thoughts feel like they’ll never go away,
they always come back around, even when I put them at bay.

In this heart of mine, I hope that all of this isn’t true,
and that I’ll find true happiness and these thoughts will be through.

Today’s a day for giving thanks,
a day to share with your loved ones.
Today’s a day for giving thanks,
a day to eat like a glutton.

What does it mean to be thankful?
Is it to say thank you for everything you got?
Being thankful is not just for saying thanks,
but for appreciating a life that could not be bought.

There’s no way around it,
there will always be good and bad.
There are times that you will be happy,
and times that you will be sad.

So the question is asked, why are you thankful?
What are you thankful for?

I am thankful for those in my life,
the family and friends I hold so dear.
I am thankful for my life experiences,
the great and the bad that most others fear.

Because if not for those experiences,
I don’t know who I would be.
Because all the things I have been through,
caused me to be the person you see.

You all have been a part of my life,
some big, some small.
But in the end of all of it,
I’m thankful for it all.

Throughout my life, I haven’t traveled very much. Traveling all over the world has always been a dream of mine. I want to explore how others live, not only in different cities, but different states, countries, islands, continents, you name it! Within the past few years, I’ve traveled out of Orlando more than I have in my whole life.

A little history on Pinky: I was born in Manhattan, NY. I lived there and in Yonkers for a bit until my fam moved down here to Orlando…where we’ve been ever since…same house and all.

I get these cravings and wants to travel and take vacations. Most likely because work and school = normal day to day life and I want more excitement other than Orlando. My list of places I’ve been is pretty pathetic, but some places I’m so glad I got to see and would visit again.

Visited

Florida:  Daytona Beach, Cocoa Beach, New Symrna Beach, Clearwater, Key West, Jacksonville, Pensacola, St. Augustine, Tampa, Ft. Lauderdale

Las Vegas

Washington DC

Boston

Bahamas

Puerto Rico

New York

Cruise to Jamaica and Cayman Islands

Desired Destinations

Chicago

California

New Jersey

Philly

Hawaii

Mexico

Dominican Republic

Amsterdam

Australia

Japan

China

Spain

Italy

Brazil

….just to get the list started <3

Today marks the last day of summer for me and it’s back to school tomorrow.  This year so far has had many ups and downs and it amazes me how fast this year has come and is now almost done.  With experiences and situations that have occurred, I have come to realize who’s real, who’s fake, and those that have proved to me that they care about me and are truely genuine when they say that they are my friend.  So many people in a lifetime will walk in and out of your life, some will leave a mark and some will leave an experience.  Either way, they may or may not be in your life or important in the future.  There may be a person that was once close but then once their true colors show, it completely changes the relationship you have with them.  On the other hand, there may be someone that has always been behind the scenes and then later prove that they are truely genuine, humble, and turn out to be this amazing person that has been there the whole time.  But that’s just the way life is.

My main focus now remains the same: school.  Although I’ve been having some issues with getting all the financials situated so I can continue to attend and finish sooner rather than later, I know I still have to do my best and put all stresses aside to achieve a major goal in my life.  Work is busy busy and I’ve been trying to focus on a promotion and on being on my best behavior to ensure I’ll have a job to pay the bills.  Things tend to get a little stressful for me at times and I try to maintain but I know there are select few that I can go to for support or even just to get my mind off things and just have a good time.

My family is an amazing, crazy, fun bunch that once we’re together, it’s nothing but good times that we have.  All of it is drama free and you can just feel the happy vibe in the atmosphere.  I love my family very much and I’m glad they are the way they are.  My select friends that I associate myself with now, are an awesome few that I have my own bond with and I feel I can be myself around with no judgments.  I’m sure the people know who they are because I try to hang with them on the regular or at least communicate with them….they know I love em ^_^

All in all, life may have its issues, stresses, and whatnot, but I continue to try to keep my head up and not let the little things keep me down.  Which reminds me of a quote I recently said and I will use again to bring this to a close…

Life is too short to be sad, down, and worry about things that won’t matter later. That’s why I start my day off with a smile and I’m grateful that I have people in my life that truly care and I know will keep bad things away.

the regulars that keep me smiling <3

July was a bit crazy for me and a lot happened throughout the month, in which, some events I will mention and others I choose to leave out.  I’m pretty much done with summer school, all I have left is a 3 page paper to write and have in by 6pm Tuesday.  I’m not stressing about it.  The class was an easy A and I’ve gotten nothing but A’s on everything I’ve turned in, except for 1 B, but I know I’m straight.

July 17-20 was an experience I will not forget.  Myself, my bestfriend Rich, and 2 good friends of mine went up to Boston, MA to visit our boy Skooby and see his baby.  The trip had it’s ups and downs but more ups than anything to make a trip that I will not forget.  I fell in love with the city life.  There was just something about it that captured my heart.  On our trip we made so many memories:  inside jokes, callin out all the Beemers we saw [because they were everywhere], walking around and exploring the city, eating delicious Chinese food from a hole-in-the-wall spot, drinks, Club Felt, chillin on the stoop, photoshoots, random conversations, singing songs, and it was just a great trip overall.

[[Big thanks to Ritchi who made it all possible! TY for everything you did for me!]]

Boston, MA

Falling in love with the city

Boston Crew: Shabbah, RPC, KC, & Pinkaay

Throughout July, I’ve also been working like a slave at work, trying to hustle my members to meet my goals.  At first I was worried I wouldn’t make my required points but I ended up exceeding the requirement and I will be looking forward to an extra $200 on the paycheck. :D

There are some people that have definately helped make my life easier and are helping me get back to my happy state that I was once in before.  I know who my real friends are and know who I need to keep near and dear to my heart.  I’ve had some minor issues with one of them, but we always seem to work them out.  Others have just shown me a great time and they fill my heart with joy when I am with them.  There has been unfortunate situations that occurred this past month that caused me to reflect on what has happened from now to a year ago, and let me tell you, a lot has happened.  It just really sucks that certain situations that have happened are preventing me from hanging out with other people that I’m cool with because I’m not really on good terms with select few.  The select few happened to be my main social circle last year which has now fallen apart but they are constantly with my other friends which leaves me as the oddball of the situation.  It really urks me, this whole situation, and I wish things didn’t have to be this way but there are valid reasons of why they did.  It is what it is, not much I can do.  I did nothing wrong in except for explain how I feel yet it came to this and now I’m the one that is suffering.  Ugh.

I’m tired of drama.  I’m just trying to enjoy life with the people I care about yet situations prevent me from doing so.

Time for a life check…time to go new places, experience new things, meet new people, and leave the past behind.  This girl is only moving forward, and the drama in the past can go fly a kite.